Things I'm Thinking About

Category: 31 Days (Page 1 of 16)

Neighbors

When I move somewhere new and am learning my way around, I venture away from home to the grocery store or the post office, and then navigate back. Every new destination is a separate place, with home as the center point. As I become more familiar with the city, I can start to link destinations together without having to start from home. My mental map fills in and I see how the places relate to each other, not just to my house. The flat map comes to life as I learn where the separate locations fit into the puzzle.

That happened to me today, even though I’m not somewhere new.

I met a friend for coffee this morning in an Oakland neighborhood I have visited many times. Before I left home, I was dreading one part of the drive. After merging on the freeway, I have to move over several lanes right away. Two lanes go off to the right, heading to a different part of Oakland, two lanes cross the Bay Bridge into San Francisco, and two lanes curve off to the left to my destination. I have to make it from the right side all the way to the left side. Crossing the lanes of commuter traffic rushing to the City is daunting. The best way to do it, maybe, is to put on my signal and dash into traffic without looking, because when I crane my neck around to try to find a gap, the commuters see the wide, darting eyes of an amateur and cut me off, one after the other. It’s like crossing a buffalo stampede.

Once I make it through, I follow the freeway downtown, passing the court and county jail, Lake Merritt and the Grand Lake Theater, Crocker Highlands and Fruitvale, and finally exit at Park Boulevard. Though it’s only about 10 miles, It feels like a big journey from home, away from my normal routes and comfort zone.

After saying goodbye to my friend this morning, I took a different way home. Google Maps took me the other direction instead of backtracking to the freeway that I came on. I wound my way past houses on one side and a large park on the other for about a mile, and suddenly, I knew where I was. I felt a puzzle piece drop into place.

I had come to another freeway that goes straight into Berkeley, and takes me home on a familiar route through town, past our first apartment, the Cal stadium and the dorm I lived in Sophomore year. I have always taken the buffalo-stampede route, never realizing that this back way was so close to what feels like home. That neighborhood is basically right next to my neighborhood.

Connections are powerful. In an instant, my perception of distance and separation was replaced with a new understanding. The piece fell into place because I saw a landmark I recognized, bringing that place within the boundaries of where I feel comfortable and at home. When I thought the only way to get there was the uncomfortable freeway trip, that place felt foreign, but coming around the other way made me see it from a different perspective.

Finding a community of people to feel at home with comes together piece by piece this way too. Connections happen when I see something in another that I know and understand from my experience. The landmarks that I recognize in others and they recognize in me are usually not the polished and put-together pictures posted on social media; they are the messier parts–the trying, failing, learning and growing that we all do.

I can’t predict when a puzzle piece will come together, but I know it when I see it.

A Plastic Lid

Walking along the beach the other day, I saw a plastic lid from a coffee cup washing into the ocean with a wave. I grabbed it and carried it with me until I found a trash can. Such a small thing, keeping one lid out of the ocean, but I couldn’t just walk past it. It was right in front of me.

I’m trying to stop using plastic. It’s so convenient, and so hard not to use. Everything comes packaged and wrapped and bagged. It takes work to put down the bottle, the jug, the bag or the clamshell and find another way to purchase and carry items I need. The challenge to find ways to store food and other items at home is real after living for so long with ziplock bags and plastic wrap. I’m terrible about remembering to bring my own water bottle or grocery bags.

So much plastic has been discarded, though–especially in the ocean–that huge plastic trash islands cover swaths of the ocean surface, some as big as the state of Texas. Most plastic production is for packaging and single-use items. Eventually, plastic breaks down into smaller and smaller bits and fibers, and is eaten by marine life, getting into fish and plants and animals and water and people.

I can’t keep doing it.

It’s starting to be important to me to use less plastic–not simply as an intellectual agreement, but as a motivation to change my habits.  I can’t single-handedly reverse what’s happening, but I’m aligning myself with the earth against over-consumption and our collective madness for all things disposable. I want to stop for my peace of mind, even if it doesn’t make a difference and if no one else does it. I feel more whole and grounded when I’m acting with an awareness of the big picture. It’s slower, it can be tedious, but it’s satisfying to be more intentional and thoughtful about what I buy and how it impacts the earth.

Of course, there are less altruistic, green-hearted moments when I’m alone in the grocery aisle. I wonder if my stand against plastic means much. The plastic is already there, lined up on the shelves. One more jug won’t matter, and the popcorn seems fresher when it’s sealed up in it’s own thick container. Sometimes I’m in a hurry. Or tired. Or thirsty, and the bottled water is cold in the cooler at the checkout line. I probably won’t make the critical difference.

I know, the logic goes that if customers stop using one thing and ask for another, eventually companies will respond to keep sales up.  As I’m writing this, I remember that I have seen that happen with other things. It’s real.

Organic foods are a good example. In the past 10 years, my local grocery store  has added a whole section of organic produce, dairy products, and canned goods–everything from flour, sugar and spices to dog food. There is not only an organic version, there is a generic organic option. Humanely farmed, grass-fed and uncured meats are a prominent part of the meat department. Even giants like Costco and Walmart offer a wide selection of organically grown foods and health, beauty and cleaning products free of harmful chemicals. Green products, like toilet paper made with recycled paper and compostable plates and utensils, are readily available. Critics say the labels don’t mean as much as we think, but at the least, producers are responding to customers’ growing preference for sustainably produced food and household products.

I’ve also seen a difference since 2007, when our city banned single use plastic bags, the light-weight, grocery-store kind known as T-shirt bags. The state banned them in 2015, eliminating more than half of the plastic bag litter along the state’s beaches after only one year. I have suffered no shortage of plastic bags since then–almost everything still comes in a bag, and bread bags work just as well to clean up after the dog as grocery bags. Just recently, another large source of litter, plastic straws, has been restricted and banned in some cities and states. One step at a time, plastic is being used less through legislation. Plastics are less readily available because of the law, and at the same time, it is making me more mindful of what I am using, and encouraging me to find more ways to stop using plastic.

It’s becoming more common for businesses to use compostable lids and produce bags instead of plastic ones. I was happy to discover compostable produce bags at Trader Joe’s. They work exactly the same, but they eventually decompose. To avoid bag use altogether, I started putting my produce on the conveyor belt loose. My lettuce, carrots, apples and eggplants don’t seem to mind. If something does need to be bagged, like food from the bulk bins or something fragile or small–tomatoes or mushrooms, for instance–I have reusable mesh bags that work well. They’ve been easy to use, and now that I’m getting in the habit of bringing them to the store, I actually prefer them.

There’s so much plastic to think about: detergent bottles, cheese wrappers, dog food bags, meat trays, shampoo bottles–the list is overwhelming. It is everywhere, every day. I can’t let that cause me to give up. One lid kept from washing into the surf, one step at a time, and by doing what is right in front of me, I’m trying to stop using plastic. I love walking on the beach and swimming in the ocean too much to ignore it.

Feet on the Ground

On a recent visit to the beach, I played in the waves and walked barefoot on the sand.  I stood at the edge of the water and let the washing of the surf bury my feet. I felt connected to the earth and to the tides–a primal sense of belonging. I felt grounded. 

Apparently, it wasn’t just an exercise in mindfulness. The earth literally grounds us, balancing the electrons in our bodies.

It sounds like something straight out of a hippie handbook, but I found an article from the National Institute of Health detailing studies on “earthing” or “grounding.” Scientists actually have taken measurements, done double-blind studies and published papers about this.  Getting your feet directly on the earth can ease chronic pain, improve sleep and reduce inflammation, among many other things.

All this, as simple as taking a walk without shoes?

Earthing research, observations, and related theories raise an intriguing possibility about the Earth’s surface electrons as an untapped health resource—the Earth as a “global treatment table.” Emerging evidence shows that contact with the Earth—whether being outside barefoot or indoors connected to grounded conductive systems—may be a simple, natural, and yet profoundly effective environmental strategy against chronic stress, ANS dysfunction, inflammation, pain, poor sleep, disturbed HRV, hypercoagulable blood, and many common health disorders, including cardiovascular disease. The research done to date supports the concept that grounding or earthing the human body may be an essential element in the health equation along with sunshine, clean air and water, nutritious food, and physical activity.

From: Earthing: Health Implications of Reconnecting the Human Body to the Earth’s Surface Electrons, (Journal of Environmental and Public Health, National Institute of Health website)

A website about grounding, Barefoot Healing, suggests other ways to be “earthed”: Swim in the ocean or lakes; garden with bare hands; lay on the grass; hug or lean on a living tree; sleep on the ground while camping; or wear natural leather-soled shoes instead of synthetic rubber or plastic shoes.

They also sell indoor grounding equipment on the website that plugs into a wall socket. I’m a little skeptical about that; it sounds less like science and more like a folk remedy, or like one of those “As Seen On TV!” products at CVS.

I am willing to take off my shoes and head outside, though. I don’t need gardening gloves when I’m pulling weeds–or I can wear the leather kind. A nap on the grass or reading a book while sitting against a tree at the park sounds wonderful. I don’t even have to be on sand or dirt–concrete sidewalks conduct the earth’s goodness too. I believe that literally getting in touch with nature and plugging into the earth must be good for body and soul.

Whatever the science behind it, I know that I was refreshed and energized by floating and swimming in the salty, cool water, with sunshine in my eyes and sand under my feet (and in my ears and in the liner of my swimsuit). It made me feel young and carefree and alive, and I’ll be back as soon I can.

Back into the Garden

I was drawn back into the garden today. I went out to grab a book I left on the patio, and looked around the corner to see if the hummingbird I saw out the window earlier was still lingering in the purple flowers on the warm, south-facing wall. I noticed some weeds poking up again among the Kangaroo Paws plant and stepped over to pull them up. One thing led to another, and I was caught up in picking weeds and rearranging mulch and admiring the new blossoms on the bougainvillea.

For the past 12 years, our “garden” has  been at the mercy of the hungry deer that range through our neighborhood. They eat everything but weeds, favoring anything with flowers. A family of deer has made our neighbor’s back yard their ancestral homeland, bearing sweet little fawns in ones and twos, and raising them to return and make their own families there. Generations of deer families. An old buck with one cataract-glazed eye resting there was common, his massive rack poking above the shrubs, while the doe grazed her way through the hedges.

Several times, our dog Tie has seen the deer over our low, wrought-iron fence and put on his best show of bravado, only to have them mock him with a blank stare before lowering their heads to graze again. A few times, Tie has come bolting back in the house when a  protective doe didn’t like him barking at her fawn, and jumped over the fence to charge him. Many times, we have met adult deer on our stairs on the way up to our door from the street, and had to stomp and yell to shoo them away. They aren’t afraid of us. I’ve also heard stories of them charging people. A woman who was living with us decided to get back in the car and go spend the night with a friend rather than confront the buck blocking her path up to the house.

They are a nuisance. I call them the Damn Deer. To me, they are large rodents ravaging my yard.

As a group, I wish they would go away. Individually, though, they are cute, especially as babies. One spring, a white-spotted fawn got stuck in our little fence. The family had been chewing up our yard when they startled and ran. Mom hopped over the fence, but baby tried to go through it and got stuck at the hips.

It was squealing in fear. We couldn’t pull it back through because it was struggling so much, so my husband ran for a saw while my daughter tried to comfort the baby. We freed it by sawing off one of the rails of the fence (did you really think we’d saw off its leg?!?). It ran and hid in the bushes, a long, healthy life ahead to spend nibbling my landscaping down to the dirt.

Needless to say, we didn’t have much growing in our yard. There are some plants that are deer-resistant, but these deer didn’t seem to know that, and ate most everything, including ivy, which is supposed to be poisonous for them. Last summer, we decided to put a fence around our side and back yard. At last, we could plant freely; flowers, fruit, luscious specimens of all kinds. We did–it looked amazing.

When we got home after being away for two weeks, I stepped outside and looked around. Something didn’t look right. The blossoms had been chomped off of their bases, a broad, clean cut typical of big deer teeth. They found a way to get in. I saw them on the other side of the house, alerted by Tie’s frantic barking on the sun porch. There was an 8-point buck and a doe coming through the back way, up to no good.

The next Saturday, we pulled out a roll of wire mesh that we had used to protect our lemon tree (yes! they even eat lemon leaves!) before the fence went up. We secured it over the one spot in a thick hedge that we thought they could slip through.

As the blooms began to reappear, I watched warily for them to be mowed down again. The plants began to grow again and stretch out, luxuriating in the safe, cloistered space. Hummingbirds and bees flitted and buzzed. A few days ago, I got out my new little trimmers, pulled on my new gloves and went out to do some trimming.

I haven’t been much of a gardener in the past decade, but now that the yard is looking so pretty, I’m drawn out there to care for the plants. I think they may actually stay around for a while.

Don’t feel sorry for the deer; they still have my front yard to browse and enjoy–at least until we find a way to chase them away to greener pastures.

Some Things I Love About You, Fall

  • The end of Daylight Saving Time–taking back the hour stolen from me in the spring
  • The way the sunlight slants, making edges and shadows look sharper
  • Plugging in my fake, electric fire–the crackling and flickering is so cozy
  • Long evenings by the “fire”
  • Munching on popcorn–well, that’s an all year thing, but it’s extra nice in the fall coziness
  • Orange harvest moons hanging huge and low on the horizon–so mysterious and dreamy
  • Squash–Kabocha, acorn, butternut, spaghetti, all of ’em
  • Trader Joe’s Maple Leaf cookies–they have them all year, but I only buy them in autumn, and only when there I’m sure people will be around to help eat them
  •  Picking  apples from our tree and canning applesauce–an all day project with my daughters–so messy and steamy and fun
  • Cool, sunny days–even if it gets a little sticky in the afternoon, the shorter day can’t hold the heat, and the evenings and mornings are crisp and fresh
  • Bratwurst and cabbage
  • Putting an extra blanket on the bed–that comforting heaviness
  •  Sweaters, jackets and scarves
  • Deep orange hachiya persimmons hanging like ornaments on the leafless tree
  • Clear mornings when the Golden Gate Bridge looks orange (it is International Orange, but from here, you can only see the color on the clearest days)
  • Green turning to gold, orange, yellow, red and brown–especially aspens
  • Leaves swirling in the wind
  • Elk bugling in Rocky Mountain National Park–seeing and hearing the drama of the rut 
  • Planning homemade gifts for Christmas while there’s still time to do them (and before I abandon them because I waited too long and ran out of time)
  • Knitting by the fire, a cuppa tea nearby, still hoping to finish at least a couple of the gifts
  • Soups and stews simmering all day
  • This poem: Something told the Wild Geese
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